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Pieces disconnected and scattered around.

The pain cut too deep for my body;

So parts of my soul left for solid ground.

Scattered into another place;

where it felt safer to be.

They say my soul is fragmented

So I reach out for the pieces;

So I can once again;

– complete me.

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or I can trust how I feel;

or if I can continue to peel back these layers today.

I don’t know to you what to say;

what to say.

I don’t know if God has love in store;

I don’t know what’s worth fighting for.

I don’t know where to go;

If homes with you;

then let it show.

cos I don’t know what’s worth fighting for; 

and i’m left unsure. 

if true love is real today;

cos I don’t know to you what to say;

~ to say

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got to let this go.

Needing to trust;

what it is I know.

Wanting to let in;

love once again.

Longing for what is real;

True love.

~The closest friend.

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likes it is a lifeboat, 

to get me back to shore.

I hold onto a future;

that has me smiling and loved once more.

I hold on to pieces of the past;

that were spontaneous and free.

I hold onto the pieces of love;

~that were the reality of me

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feels like a fire;

where breathing is a chore.

Tonight the illusion of fake and desire;

feels more and more like a bore.

Tonight all I wanted was someone who knows me;

close to me and near.

Tonight all I got,

was leftover pieces of pain;

confusion interwoven with repressed fear.

~Tonight I was seeking for love`

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feeling used,

internally bruised.

I’m sad;

feeling mad,

identifying all that is bad.

I’m lost;

this has come at a cost,

all this pain.

I’m tired;

feeling wired,

not inspired.

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Now as an adult I still sit with anger like it is something a little foreign to me sometimes; like sometimes healthy anger is something I am still getting comfortable with. It is an emotion that is not ‘bad’ but after witnessing unhealthy levels of it I can get triggered by it.

Sometimes I can express my healthy valid anger. Other times it is in it’s own cage and is suppressed attributing at times to possibly a depression or a sadness or something else.

Anger and being a female isn’t always welcome either. We are expected to be a certain way sometimes and angry isn’t always the way. A counsellor reminded me that at the heart of healthy anger i.e. righteous anger is injustice. This kind of anger can fuel a way forward for change and truth to come to the forefront where anger is used to bring more love into life not more pain. The right kind of anger not driven by dysfunction and destruction but by a desire for truth, connection, resolution and eventually love and harmony between people.

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Now it is coming back.

Feeling colour again;

It all felt so black.

Picking up the pieces;

And sculpting a new story

Everything was wrong;

~But now I’m finally free.

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When I sit with the part that is lost;

the part of my identity.

I can connect with you Lord;

Faithfully.

For you God can reveal; reveal to me.

How you are going to take the broken pieces;

and again make me me.

How you are going to break the chains;

and set me fully free.

How the past is no longer an anchor;

weighing down on me.

How you breathe new life; into all parts of me.

A new step forward;

~Into a life of eternity; with you Lord.

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