but God you’ve counted my tears.

kept them close to you;

To me you represent what’s true.

And in this new season I enter;

this new time of change.

You’ve taken all the broken pieces;

and you’ve delicately rearranged.

Turning pain into purpose;

turning the past into hope.

Thankyou for bringing me out of the dark;

and being there when I couldn’t cope.

I love you more everyday;

though sometimes my mind doubts what’s true.

I hope this new season I enter;

~is filled with more moments with you. 

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if there’s a Hell?

And what today do I feel.

Because what about those who don’t believe?

Who don’t know what to do as they grieve?

God sometimes it feels a foggy mess;

But I see the way you connect me when I feel less.

And the human struggle we seem to each have;

cloaked in different pain;

but all sometimes equally sad.

And I wonder if the words in the bible are true?

I guess my intellect likes to question you.

For my heart knows pain that runs deeper than I can always say.

And sometimes even when I only have a mustard seed of faith; 

I will still pray.

But sometimes God I wonder if it is only you?

Or if these other Gods are also true.

But I guess I can let it all sit with me;

Knowing and somehow with a fragile trust;

Allow you to show me.

~How you have set me free? 

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and I’m crashing to the floor.

There seems to be no more space inside;

For me to drive through it all.

Surrendering sounds easy;

the right thing to do.

So can you find me in a new space;

~Where I’ve fully let go of what’s not true.

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I ask the Lord what’s all this for?

let the parts that hurt leave.

Encompassed by his love;

I can wrap myself in this space.

~ just let the parts leave; the ones I want to erase.

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Pieces disconnected and scattered around.

The pain cut too deep for my body;

So parts of my soul left for solid ground.

Scattered into another place;

where it felt safer to be.

They say my soul is fragmented

So I reach out for the pieces;

So I can once again;

– complete me.

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or I can trust how I feel;

or if I can continue to peel back these layers today.

I don’t know to you what to say;

what to say.

I don’t know if God has love in store;

I don’t know what’s worth fighting for.

I don’t know where to go;

If homes with you;

then let it show.

cos I don’t know what’s worth fighting for; 

and i’m left unsure. 

if true love is real today;

cos I don’t know to you what to say;

~ to say

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got to let this go.

Needing to trust;

what it is I know.

Wanting to let in;

love once again.

Longing for what is real;

True love.

~The closest friend.

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likes it is a lifeboat, 

to get me back to shore.

I hold onto a future;

that has me smiling and loved once more.

I hold on to pieces of the past;

that were spontaneous and free.

I hold onto the pieces of love;

~that were the reality of me

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feels like a fire;

where breathing is a chore.

Tonight the illusion of fake and desire;

feels more and more like a bore.

Tonight all I wanted was someone who knows me;

close to me and near.

Tonight all I got,

was leftover pieces of pain;

confusion interwoven with repressed fear.

~Tonight I was seeking for love`

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